The pains of growing up
Posted in Uncategorized with tags full-time job, growing up on July 3, 2008 by monicasuma
Since I left Romania, I’ve always had a recurrent petrifying thought, which is that once I finish school altogether and start working (regular everyday job), it will be next to impossible to come home. It is known as a fact that in the US, vacation days are fewer than in Europe. So, let’s say I have three weeks vacation per year, which is quite optimistic to start with anyway. I will obviously want to take advantage of it and not spend it entirely by traveling half way across the world, in a flight that takes a few days to recover from. However I can’t not come either; it’s my family we are talking about and not seeing them for long periods of time (I have seen them at periods of six months, approximately) is simply not something I would consider. On the other hand, a simple stay in Bucharest doesn’t constitute a real vacation, like one you would take in Cancun, for instance. When coming home, you have certain “duties” to fulfill and certain people to see, which I long for the entire year, but one also longs for a good relaxing vacation.
So, what am I to do when this time comes around? Become a workaholic in order to eliminate the slight temptation of letting myself fall into depression? Or find an effortless job with a long vacation time, such as a teacher (which is not to say that a teacher’s job is effortless)? Either one of the solutions is of no liking to me; I don’t want to become a complete and downright robot, working non-stop and finding no joy in life but that of making money and I definitely don’t want to be a teacher, I would be a terrible teacher. It’s not the thought of a full-time job that’s scary, but the fact that I will be tied up by that job. I look forward for that independence that a job gives you, but I hate feeling stuck, like a prisoner, in one place.
Having said that and by adding that this is probably one of the worst fears I have, combined with a certain sense of loneliness that one has when away from home and family, I hope and pray that a breakthrough solution will come, that I too, will see the light at the end of the tunnel (Ha! I’ve made it sound like such a drama). One belief I have, which was most probably in stored in me by my mother and life’s experiences, is that things tend to solve themselves and when you think there is absolutely no solution to a complicated problem, some way, it all comes to a happy finale.
The conclusion after all this blabber? I will try to stay positive, as one teacher tells me all the time, take things as they come and above all, be more spontaneous. Nothing will change if I start worrying sooner than needed.


